You're gonna think this is crazy, but i am really sad that i got a job. It doesn't make sense, because ive been applying and looking since about forever now. Ok since july of last year, so only 9 months. But i am so down and scared and uncertain about being employed again.
Ive grown accustomed to running errands and meeting up with friends at all hours and places. I'll miss making my boyfriend lunch. I'll miss my bike rides. I've forgotten how to be productive with my time, moments just slip away now days. Evenings turn into early mornings, and i love sleeping in whenever i am tired.
How do you pack a healthy quick lunch? How am i going to be on time to this job...i've never been good at that to start with. They're making this retail sales position sound like i applied for the ceo of sales of the world...ive been to 3 interviews, a drug test and logic and personality testing. All soo stressful. Plus i am really bad at counting back change...in fact i must have a calculator beside me at all times. I hate having a 9-5 job, i need a high paying 11-4 job.....with weekends and holidays and mondays off.
Sigh. Maybe i just need to start going to bed earlier and getting more sleep. And eating less junk food. I'm going to miss being online all day too....
Ah well i must be thankful that i am one of the lucky ones that got a job.
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