Sad im no longer unemployed.

You're gonna think this is crazy, but i am really sad that i got a job. It doesn't make sense, because ive been applying and looking since about forever now. Ok since july of last year, so only 9 months. But i am so down and scared and uncertain about being employed again.
Ive grown accustomed to running errands and meeting up with friends at all hours and places. I'll miss making my boyfriend lunch. I'll miss my bike rides. I've forgotten how to be productive with my time, moments just slip away now days. Evenings turn into early mornings, and i love sleeping in whenever i am tired.
How do you pack a healthy quick lunch? How am i going to be on time to this job...i've never been good at that to start with. They're making this retail sales position sound like i applied for the ceo of sales of the world...ive been to 3 interviews, a drug test and logic and personality testing. All soo stressful. Plus i am really bad at counting back change...in fact i must have a calculator beside me at all times. I hate having a 9-5 job, i need a high paying 11-4 job.....with weekends and holidays and mondays off.
Sigh. Maybe i just need to start going to bed earlier and getting more sleep. And eating less junk food. I'm going to miss being online all day too....
Ah well i must be thankful that i am one of the lucky ones that got a job.

Nothing to say...

Last night i fell asleep watching Opera and didnt wake up until 730! Great. Not going to get much sleep tonight will i? Nope. Around 2 i am still watching tv. Then i move to books. But that is never a good plan. Because i cant go to sleep without finishing a book. Even if its lame like this one was. So 4 am rolls around and i am still awake. Munching on crackers, knawing on my giant hershey kiss, and reading. Thank goodness i ran out of book around 430. I only slept till 1030, which isnt bad actually. Then i lounged around watching those daytime court shows. My favorite is judge mulion.
Other then that i played with my sidekick, baked and am not making hamburger baked foil dinner. You toss in some raw hamburger, slice up a potato and toss in a bunch of other veggies. Salt and pepper, cream of mushrooms soup and bake for about an hour. Mmm its soo good. And its ready!

So much to say, so little of it matters.

Today.
Slept till 930, texted boyfriend for 30 minutes.
Woke up at 1145 when he called. Guess i fell asleep again.
Finally got up and out the door by 1215.

Hit up davids bridal to try on some dresses for sale on craigslist.
Small triumph. Size 14 way to big, i actually fit in a 10. Woohoo!
Dress looked good, but wasnt the size for cheap on craigslist, so i left.

Headed to circuit city to spend a $20 giftcard before they go out of business. I hate circuit city. They ruined my computer and wont fix it. Im glad they are going out of business.

Went to the bank and deposited a check.

Bought gas. $17.47 for a tank of gas. I love my little car.

Tanned. I gotta look a little less pale for valentines.

Now i am home. Starving. Bored already.

Maybe i will make dinner. Maybe i will finish off some chocolates and ice cream.